From April 10, 2024: today was another day that slipped by slowly at first, as I once again slept late, eventually ending up at the White Rock @starbuckscanada where I worked on a written reflection for a @udemy course by @sufanisplaceofbliss on the divine inspiration for writing. My reflection starts by focusing on a young boy in his childhood bedroom, creating strange new worlds with his @lego. I then tie that world of creativity into a reflection about why I express myself creatively through the act of writing.
I’m happy with the piece so far, but upset that I’m not finishing it fast enough. And as the days move on, I feel myself feeling a little more lost than I was the day before, a little less grounded, a little more groggy. The pain at night exhausts me, and I’m embarrassed I haven’t done anything about it. Next week marks another birthday coming and going, another birthday with nothing planned, and it exhausts me not having the energy to do anything. To not invite my friends to spend time together, friends I haven’t seen now in years. I can’t even remember the last time I celebrated. It’s been over a decade now for sure. Probably closer to 15 years now. When I first dated Jessie. Feels like yesterday. I wish I had those 15 years to do over again. Don’t we all?
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