I'm feelingfrozen

by pain

as dust floats and drifts collects and settles

silently around us

while softly covering life like a lonely and unseen winter snow

moving over a long drawn spread of forgotten time

which creeps as slowly as the sun rays reaching out

through double glass panes that rest vertically and ajar held in place high above that lonely sunday street

i miss u sb

do you still write on a page or screen of white

the thoughts that float through your head like that dust in the air

moving so gently and slowly as you lie in bed half awake and half asleep

covered by blankets and fuzzy pink cotton

and through the open pane a slight whisp of fresh

summer air breathes in and out

in and out in and out

slowly circulating with the light dust and those lazy rays of light

and you smile closing your while resting your eyes

to let the blue depths of your sweet soul soak in the world around you

as you lay on your back and wonder and dream

and do you ever wonder sb what it would be like

on a page of white to stand alone bathed in a soft warm light

standing there with me by your side and a knife in your hand

that falls and cuts through my soul

Finished the "Pictures of Life" section, as well as finally the "All About Me" section. I did updated two games, "Dots" and "Tic-Tac-Toe." I actually noticed I had direct links to the games on Tripod, so I had to update the links that went to those two games. There are about half a dozen other games on my site, so my apologies if you can't access them properly.

I may do the "Inspiration" page sometime later on today. If not, it'll get done next weekend, along with the "Crime Prevention" section, the "Humour," "Read" and "Watch" sections. I'll probably do everything except for the "Humour" section. The "Humour" section will be a weekend all to itself. But by the end of the month my entire site should be updated.

The nice thing is I'm noticing stuff that I didn't notice on Tripod. That is, some links and stuff I had relied on "http://steveleenow.tripod.com/" and only now am I discovering I had done that.

If I ever move my site again, it'll be easier.

We gave both our dogs baths today. Could be the last bath we ever give Angel. They are now both snuggled up in towels, resting in their cages. I'll let Angel stay in my room tonight, as it could very well be the last few hours I get to spend with her. I'll also take her for a very short morning walk when I'm up at 4am tomorrow. I sure will miss her a lot.

I have a doctor's appointment tomorrow at 4:30pm. Then have a group meeting, then get to come home.

I'm charging up some rechargable batteries (which everyone should use) and now I'm going to work on some other work. I also want to watch at least two hours of Shoah, and get a short walk in with the dogs.

- Steven

finished more sections...

Well, I've updated the "All About Me" and the "Pictures of Life" sections. Well, not done the "Pictures of Life" section but almost done, just three more areas of that to edit, the Sheri section, the patti section and my trip to Montreal section. I also noticed I hadn't done some parts of the "Kwantlen" section; and perhaps, I may do the "Inspiration" section today, as it's not very large. That will leave me with the "Crime Prevention," "Humour," "Read" and "Watch" sections left to do.

With these sections, I'm ensuring all site graphics are working and properly linked up, as well, I'm checking to see that the navigational links are working properly.

Last night, I let our dog Angel stay with me in my room. She may be going to a new home on the island next week, so I'm trying to spend as much time as I can with her. She's so adorable but she is full of a lot of energy. She makes warp speed look slow. I wish we could keep her, but with my Mum's heart problems, she's too much for her to handle. And with me working during the day everyday, I'm not home enough to look after her. If we perhaps lived in a building with a gated courtyard we could take her there for a run each day but we don't have that. We also would never take her to an off leash park because she's too wild, and combined with her nervous nature, when she is outside around other people, she may run from the park into traffic or something and get hurt.

As I look for a place of my own, I know one thing that is important to me is finding a place that has a small courtyard, so that if I ever get a dog of my own, it will have a place to run around.

I've been very conflicted and somewhat selfish about this. I was mad at my Mom for wanting to give Angel away. But I understand that it's probably the right thing to do. Even as I type this and part of me wants to cry because Angel has brought a lot of love to our lives - a lot of love and happiness. I know that it's probably for the best. Even at times when I am home, and I have studying or reading to do, she'll come and want to play and monkey around with me and I can't. Kikko, our other dog, being older and smaller, has less energy and is content to just lie on the couch or the bed while I read and study.

Also, it's taken Kikko a long time to get used to Angel, and she still has a long way to go. It's way better now though, but still, again - it's a lot of energy looking after both of them.

If my Mom was in better health she wouldn't get rid of Angel. I know this is probably a decision that hurts Mum way more than it hurts me, because she has been with Angel almost everyday since she came into our lives back in December 2005.

Anyway, I want to get this stuff done that I'm working on, so I can finish it. I wanna take Angel out for a run, take her and Kikko (our other dog, older, smaller at 10lbs to Angel's 15lbs) to Stanley Park. I may go with my friend Janny tonight, so she can walk one of them and I can walk the other and then also video tape both of them. Maybe if I can, I will get ahold of a friend in the old building I used to live in, so that we can go in the old courtyard that was there, and let them both run loose, and video tape them romping around. For memory's sake.

- Steven

finished two sections to date...

Well, I just completed editing my top-of-the-page navigation links list on all the pages that make-up the "Art" section of my site: Art. To date, that leaves two sections finished: Art and Kwantlen; leaving All About Me, Pictures of Life, Crime Prevention, Humour, Inspiration, Listen, Read and Watch being uncomplete.

I may go in and do "Listen" right now, as it's only one page and it'll make me feel more accomplished.

Then, it's off to work.

- Steve

well...

It's been an interesting week. I found out some interesting things about my student union, which I'll get into more detail next weekend.

I saw some good movies.... including Superman Returns, The DaVinci Code as well as Paper Clips (a documentary). All of them were great.

I finally shut down my website as hosted on Tripod.com. The site there consists of all the section mainpages with redirects through to steveleenow.net. Now I just have to redo the menus at the top of every single page on my site and reindex it. That job should be done by month's end.

And that's about it.

I work tomorrow, 9am - 2pm. Then get to see Il Divo at GM Place with my Mom.

- Steven